Author Archives: Seegars

Storm Warnings

Here we go again.

We’re under a watch for another round if ice storms tomorrow. Today I met up with the biss to knock out one store after I’d worked my first.

Then I continued on to the next.

Each and every store today had one thing in common.

Fear.

I don’t know why you’d need five loaves of bread for a snow day, but okay. I know some are buying up bread because they except to resell it to others for profit. I think that’s worse than the fear. They are taking advantage of others’ fear.


I know a lot of us aren’t afraid. We’ve walked through the last two years of fifteen days just fineβ€”a little madder, a little wiser. We’ve most definitely had some of our misgivings proven to be true.

The disappointment we have in the people around us is unreal. I never thought I would be this disgusted with a large part of my countries population.

You know the ones, the ones that want to force you to do something you don’t want to do for the greater good. The ones who hide who they truly are, literally and figuratively.

Things seem to be swapping up, though.

We just have to keep pushing through.


Quando Omni Flunkus Moritati

That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

Kid, You Just Don’t Know.

My daughter and I got into it yesterday. Basically it came down to her feeling like β€œI judged her friends and already had a preconceived notion of how they are”.

Well, yeah. I watch people for a reason. It’s not just because it has been trained into me to do so. I am always aware of my surroundings and the people around me.


I have very few friends I still know from school. I still have friends from all over the world from my time in the military. Bonds we’re formed in that time.

I watch her friends because I see the way they act and I don’t want my daughter presenting herself like some of them.

Trust your gut; your gut is almost always right.

On occasion, it can be wrong. But that’s a rare occurrence.


I’m trying to get it in her head that I’m only watching out for her and her heart.

She’s a good kid; she takes what people say and trusts in that. And it’s tough to make her see when someone isn’t being a good friend.

But these are lessons we have to learn on our own. I can’t save her from every heartache.

So I have to let her go on her way and learn.

I know this in my head but my heart is with her.


That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

I Feel

I feel like this old house. It’s off the side of the road I take to another part of my territory.

It has been standing long before I came along and the way it’s looking, may be well after I’m gone.

It has good bones, I suppose.

There are a lot of holes in the roof and walls. Some morning I can see the sun shining straight through it.

I think it wants to give up, it just doesn’t know how.

Like me.

I’ve been watching it through all the storms and ice and rain. I keep expecting it to fall.

But it doesn’t.

Like me.

That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

Productive

I got up at 0600. If you’re former military, don’t start. I know, sleeping in like the Air Force. I’ll take it. I’m old and a civilian now.

I could have slept later because I wasn’t leaving until sunrise. I didn’t want to risk black ice this morning, and who knew what shape the roads were in? Turns out it wasn’t all that bad.

I passed some spots where a few trees had fallen across the road, but it looked like either the county or a local had already gone through with a chainsaw. Whoever it was good on them. We are literally all in this together out here on the edge of the county.

Yeah, the electric companies rocked it yesterday. I know there were several in-state to help out. I appreciate them doing an already dangerous job in conditions that make it that much worse.


The shop rework is coming along. I did a little something today when I got home.

I watch a lot of YouTube and other channels for instructional videos on a wide variety of things. Being able to cast to a large screen will be a plus.

Besides the fact that the TV was just sitting unused.


Adding to all of this that today went well at work. Everything fell into place just as it should. Here’s hoping tomorrow will go as smoothly.

Yeah today was productive.

That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

Izzy

Winter storm Izzy is moving through, and our power has already blinked out and come back once.

I hate to miss a day posting, so I am dropping early today.

I’m getting some hit tea in me while I can as I finish up laundry before we do lose power. Hopefully we won’t, but it is what it is.

That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

Boys Day Out

My daughter is gone on a trip with the band and since it was the boys first year he didn’t go.

We had a boys day out today. We went to get our haircuts, did some shopping, hit up Walmart and Lowes, grabbed some lunch, and took a friend along.

My daughters prized possession and favorite fella in the world, Pengu, her stuffed penguin, who she’s had since she was two.

This may have aggravated her, but I hope she knows we were thinking of her and trying to make her laugh.

We had a good day. A great day.

Then we came back home and helped mom around the house and got clothes done, cooked dinner, and then settled down to a game of CoD.

We made that Legendary status we were after tonight. He was so proud.

It has been a long day, especially for a stuffed penguin.

That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

All About The Plan

There’s a plan in everything.

Plan A was already out the window earlier this week.

Plan B fell through early this morning.

I was on Plan C at 10:00 AM.

And then that fell through.


I ended up driving three hours to my last store. I left the second at 1:00 PM and arrived at the third around 4:00 PM.

That’s a bit misleading because in between, I was picking up the kids from school. I drove over seventy miles just for that.

And they were nice enough to accompany me to my last store.

They even threw in a bit.

I think I ended up somewhere around Plan F today.

That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

Faith

I have had a rock-solid faith in the people who raised me to be who I am for the better part of my life. I’ve trusted their wisdom on significant decisions I’ve made.

Over the past two years I’ve had that faith eroded more and more.

Now I’m more cautious with their offerings of assistance.

Some want that tiniest bit of control. I suppose they gain some weird pleasure from that.

They won’t get that warm feeling from me any longer.

Age and wisdom, along with common sense, do not go hand in hand all the time. Or is that hand in hand in hand?


I’ve been up since 3:00 AM. It has been a very long day. The short post is short.

That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

Intake

I’ve been cutting my caffeine intake back for a bit.

My last cup of coffee was on Saturday morning. I pulled some Bigelow’s Green Tea out of the cupboard and have been drinking that as my morning beverage.

Green Tea is supposed to be high in antioxidants and healthy.

Lessening my caffeine intake may have made a considerable difference in my stress level this week. My shoulders are looser. I’m not as irritable.

This all makes for a better workday, at least.


I’ve been reading through Psalms each morning before going into work. It’s a good time when I’m alone in the car and can concentrate without anyone around.

I mark what speaks to me each day.

I was raised in the church and was away for a long time.

Since before we were married, we’ve both been back in. It’s all or nothing.

β€œThe wicked shall be turned into hell, and all the nations that forget God. For the needy shall not always be forgotten: the expectation of the poor shall not perish for ever. Arise, O Lord; let not man prevail: let the heathen be judged in thy sight. Put them in fear, O Lord: that the nations may know themselves to be but men. Selah.”
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Psalm‬ ‭9:17-20‬ ‭KJVAAE‬‬

That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

Everywhere I Don’t Want To Be

When we got up this morning she had taken sick. Fever, aching, and chills. Our youngest hasn’t been feeling well and we decided both of them should stay home. The wife had no choice; a fever puts her out of work during regular times with her being in home health. She went for a Covid/Flu/RSV test today. One that has to be sent off and isn’t coming back for seventy-two hours.

She’s feeling much better right now. Still achy, but the fever is lower, possibly gone. She has an appetite. She’s not experiencing loss of taste or smell. She has been prescribed medicine.

We are nervous but hopeful.


I didn’t want to be at work today. I took solace in the fact that my son was home with my wife.

If there is one thing that kid loves more than video games, it’s his momma. He took care of her. I asked him to watch over her today. He had the house.

And it turns out that he checked on her so much he aggravated her. 😏


Love will do so many things to you. It will make you happy, sad, mad, and glad. It will take you to your highest and lowest points at times.

It can make you feel absolutely helpless. Our love for our children has taken us to our lowest points at times together. One moment in particular when he was still a baby.

Today I had to go through a low point alone.

But in your lowest of places, you realize things.

There’s loving someone, and then there’s being in love with someone. There’s a difference.

And that difference is that you’d do anything, trade anything for them, up to and including your own life.

If someone were to take her or hurt her, you would never hear of them again. I would obliterate not only their body and spirit but their history. They would never exist.

I would tear the world open to get to her.

But today, I was helpless when she told me her doctor was leaning towards Covid.

She has been vaccinated. It’s a requirement for her job. She made that decision with my input. She loves her career. She’s one of the few people I know who decided early in life (six years old) what they wanted to do because of an experience, and here she is, a physical therapy assistant.

She didn’t want to take the vaccine because of other medical concerns. But in the end, she did.

And now I’m helpless. Feeling like that was a bad decision.

Another part of our decision was that I wasn’t taking the vaccine. I’m basically just a healthy person. Nothing keeps me down long.

And if the worst happened due to being vaccinated or unvaccinated with all the questions surrounding both states, the kids would have one of us.


Yep, love will put you in strange places.

Sometimes it’s in the middle of a Walmart while you’re working, and you break down a bit.

And since you’re on your knees and your head is down anyway, you pray.

That’s it. That’s the post.

Seegars

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