Hitting A Wall
I’ve had a bad week if you’ve been reading this.
I’ve been sick. My will to push ahead is practically nonexistent.
There’s a lot to do at work, and I have no help for a job that at minimum needs three associates.
The last couple of days, I’ve even considered calling it quits and not going back.
But that’s never really been my style.
I don’t stop. I don’t quit. I don’t walk away from an obligation. I rarely leave anything on the table workwise.
This week I’m going to have to bite the bullet and leave some jobs undone.
I can’t do it all.
I hit metaphorical bumps in the road all the time. Usually, I speed right over them. I rarely meet a challenge that I can’t beat.
And this makes me realize how sick I was this weekend and the beginning of this week. I was sick enough to get scared. I did not know what was wrong with me, I ended up in the ER, and I was terrified. And I have to admit that to myself. I was scared.
I don’t like being scared.
I saw this earlier on Instagram. It kind of spoke to me. Maybe it’s not just a physical wall I’m hitting. Perhaps it’s emotional, losing my partner.
Now I didn’t lose her to death or anything; she moved on to another job. Something that’s going to not only pay her better but is a better fit for her little family. I couldn’t be happier for her; I talked to her last night. She sounds really happy. Makes my heart glad.
If she were still here I would’ve shown up feeling as bad as I did every day this week. But I think not having her on the team anymore really took the wind out of my sails.
We pushed each other to do the job right. We were a good team. We were them. When other sections used to need our help, they would ask our old district manager to send them. And that was me and my partner.
It’s nice to have someone with you so long that you think something and they’re already doing it.
I guess I just miss her.
So I’m going to go in tomorrow. I’m going to do the job and I’m going to wait on the next associate to show up. And we will see what they are like. I’m going to have to not judge their performance by hers. That would not be fair.
The pickings are so slim right now for quality help. A lot of people are looking for jobs but I’m not seeing a lot of people wanting to do the job.
It’s going to be a rough transition.
That’s it. That’s the post.